This may come as a surprise to some family and friends, but I have anxiety issues.
For one, as an occasional performer from young, I have mild stage fright. Like I get the tiny little butterflies fluttering in my stomach before I get on stage. ( I know you would have thought that I’d be over it by now )
But the real problem kicked in towards the end of 2015. I started to get anxiety attacks.
Here’s a little back story about me:
I used to be an extroverted person, a social butterfly. And that part of me just shattered when something happened two years ago. Till this day, I am not sure if it was because of that incident, or if the incident ‘blew up’ my anxiety.
Reading posts and watching videos online made me understand two things:
- That I was having anxiety attacks and that was okay.
- That everyone experiences anxiety attacks differently.
When it happens (and it comes randomly), my chest feels tighter, my breathing becomes more labored and I cannot focus on what anyone is saying. And my recovery speed largely depends on my environment.
After experiencing a few attacks, I have come up with a few triggers myself:
- Crowded places
- People pressurising me
- Negative thoughts (though this one is the most rare cause)
Although these may very well be the triggers, it doesn’t happen all the time (lucky me!). And I’m pleased to find that there are a few things that help me overcome it!
- Closing my eyes and imagining a peaceful scene
As of yesterday, I made two important decisions – to learn how to drive, and ‘learn’ how to date. These two decisions came from my wanting to overcome my fears. I don’t know exactly why but something tells me that overcoming my fears will help in overcoming my anxiety. Perhaps because it may give me a confidence boost? HAHA. I’m not sure how things will go down, but I guess I just got to ride the flow.
Does anyone else have anxiety? Let me know!