Final Post

Long time no talk everyone!

It’s been so long. I’ve been really busy preparing for University and today I finally decided to let you in on some good(?) news!

I have created a new website. Well, it’s still the same name… But you get the idea!

You can find me @ 🙂

Hope to see you there ❤

P.S. I will probably re-upload the previous chapters of FeMale and continue on there as well 😉

Warmest hugs,

e.clair ❤


Week of 22nd Jan ’18

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Nerve-wrecked on some days, pure bliss on others.

Dining with his family

Monday (22.01.18)

Yup, you saw that right.

Right now, it seems like a distant memory, but I remember feeling so anxious, my stomach was in knots.

I was rummaging my closet for bottoms that would match the new black jumper I got. I think I went through a few outfits (and in record time too HAHAHA).

Coincidentally, my mom came home the moment I was heading out so she saw my outfit and approved of it. (Seriously boosts my confidence.)

I sped walk my way to the MRT station in fear that I’d be late. And thank God, I wasn’t! In fact, I was right on time (yayyyy HAHA)! I met my partner on the train and we went to meet his family together.

We still had some time so we were walking around for a bit. A short while later, we found out that his parents were already waiting in Sushi Tei.

If I’m going to be completely honest, I was nerve wrecked.

Though it wasn’t my first time meeting them, I was still anxious that I’d do or say something wrong.

But thankfully, all of them were really kind, and I felt a little more at ease towards the end HAHA.

Writing this made me feel all jittery again, and I’m still crossing my fingers that they’ll like me. But I’m pretty glad we dined together! (At least once before I fly off.)

Visiting the Chinese physician for the second time

Tuesday (23.01.18)

The first time I visited this doctor, I told him about my back pain, shoulder pain and headaches. And he poked me at a few points with a needle. Then he advised me to not drink cold water. So I heeded his advice and stopped drinking cold beverages.

But my parents insisted that I should visit him a few more times before I leave.

So I went. And this time I wanted to tell him about my problems in more detail. But before I could, he raised his voice and said, “Were you not listening to what I just said?” And it threw me off. But I just kept quiet.

It reminded me of the doctor from the neuroscience clinic I visited.

They don’t listen to the whole story.

Oh wells.

And I have to visit him again on Wednesday… Wish me luck.

Meetup with my best girlfriends

Friday (26.01.18)

The food was so bad. But I was still super duper happy thanks to my girls.

We met at Pastamania at Westmall. I got myself a plate of meatballs with linguine. There were 5 meatballs but only one tasted edible. The other 4 smelt like sweaty shirts. And the pasta tasted really bland.

I don’t have a good palate. Like I enjoy food that tastes bland, but this was way off.

But all of that was tolerable because I was seriously over the moon just seeing their faces.

We talked as usual, about anything and everything. And time flew past just like that.

After finishing our food, we went out to take some polaroids. Considering the awkward souls that we are, we did really well this time. I mean, we actually got really good shots on our own (it’s really hard to take a wefie with a Polaroid camera). And for the first time, I looked decent in a Polaroid photo!

I’m so going to miss them 😥

Second last date

Saturday (27.01.18)

It’s only been four months with each other and yet, it’s already our second last date together before I fly.

Time really really flies.

We ventured into unknown territory – Singapore’s Art Science Museum. And we bought tickets to see the exhibition “Future World: Where Art Meets Science”.

To be honest, the only mind-blowing exhibition for me was “Crows are Chased and the Chasing Crows are destined to be Chased as well, Transcending Space.” Okay, that was a mouthful.

But holy moly, it truly felt like I was in another space. The audiovisual installation was really cool. And I think because it was the first one, the other installations paled in comparison (but they’re good too).

The most fun one was definitely “Black Waves”. We got so many boomerangs in this area HAHAHA.

I was really excited about the “Crystal Universe”, but it was somewhat a little disappointing. Everybody wanted to get great photos, but couldn’t because of space and time constraint.

Oh wells.

For dinner, we went to Supply and Demand at Orchard Gateway!

And I got a tasting portion of Carbonara Cremoso. Thankfully we got Garlic Truffle Fries to share if not I might have gone to sleep with a growling stomach at the end of the day! (Thanks babe if you’re reading this.)

Anyway, we went to meet some of his close friends after dinner at Vivo City and I was again, nerve-wrecked HAHAHA.

I keep feeling like his family and friends may not like me. And to be honest, sometimes I still do.

But thankfully they are all super nice (and I even took a group photo with them, like what!?)

Mom’s birthday celebration

Sunday (28.01.18)

So our family friend decided to treat our family to dinner!

I was more excited about the surprise, however.

My dad bought her a bouquet (that I didn’t even see prior to that) and we got her a cake as well hehe (that she doesn’t know about).

After dinner, my mom took our family friend’s car while my dad, my partner and I went to get the flowers and the cake.

Seriously, it was not a super good surprise, but seeing that wide smile on my mother’s face made us happy enough yay 🙂

And to top it all off, I got to spend another few hours with my partner hehe. ❤

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • Sick Boy by The Chainsmokers.
  • IDGAF by Dua Lipa.
  • The Middle by Zedd, Maren Morris and Grey.
  • Good Together by Shy Martin.

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤

Week of 15th Jan ’18

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A long week.

Getting new clothes

Monday & Tuesday (15.01.18 – 16.01.18)

I am very stingy with my money especially when buying things for myself. I mean… I shouldn’t squander my savings because I’m not working regularly after all!

And thus, I usually get hand me downs, or go shopping with my mom once in a blue moon (though recently it’s been quite frequent).

On Monday, my mom decided to clear out her wardrobe and handed me a few pieces of clothing!!

I got three dresses (all black of course), one grey cardigan and one black Adidas jacket (from my mom’s wardrobe) HAHAHA.

The next day, my mom woke me up at 8 in the morning saying that she wants to do her hair and go shopping.

Half awake, I got ready and we made our way down to Orchard Road.

I wasn’t planning to do anything to my hair that day, but I got a haircut and now my hair is short once again. At the ‘end of the day’, I had a new haircut and three new pieces of clothing!

Going to the hospital again

Tuesday (16.01.18)

Working in the hospital as a student nurse is such a distant memory even though it has only been a year.

Visiting my aunt in the hospital I used to intern at, brought about some mixed feelings. Nostalgia mostly.

But of course, I was more worried for my aunt and thought less about the past.

I remember my relatives trying to talk me out of joining nursing years ago. And today, many people have asked me why I stopped pursuing nursing.

Well certainly, it may seem like I regretted my decision. But on the contrary, I did not regret my decision.

Nursing has taught me many things about life.

It taught me how precious life is. Even though we are taught to not show emotion in the presence of the patients’ family members, I still feel the heartbreak when I hear news of the patients passing on.

It taught me acceptance. You don’t get to choose your patients, neither do the patients. Eventually, you begin to see everyone as part of one race – the human race.

It taught me patience. The patients are usually easily irritated and frustrated because they are unwell or in pain. And sometimes, they can be hard to handle.

But as the saying goes, “No matter how dark it gets, the sun will always rise again.”

Yes, nursing is one hell of a job. It is tough. And most people think that it is hardly gratifying. But that’s because the gratifying feeling comes from hearing words of gratitude from the patients.

So, no, I don’t regret my decision one bit.

As for why I’m not continuing, it’s because I don’t think I’m noble enough, and because I want more time for my family and myself.

Filling in my planners

Last year, I got two planners.

One for my birthday and the other was a gift from the recital.

Usually, I do not write in planners because I am a perfectionist when it comes to writing. And I end up tearing off page after page. So I depend on my phone’s calendar a lot when it comes to scheduling.

But this year, I shall try writing in my planner as well.

I’m thinking of using one for work and school and using the other for personal stuff. What do you guys think? Let me know if you have any ideas for me HAHA.

Meeting up with my dance mates

Saturday (20.01.18)

This was kind of a last minute plan, but I was super excited for it.

In the past, I was never this close to anyone from dance. And I’m really glad that things have changed.

Dance saved my life more times than you can imagine. I’m not a good dancer, but I enjoy dancing. I’m sure everyone has that one thing that makes them happy and lets them forget about everything negative that’s happening.

For me, that one thing is dance.

When I dance, everything on my mind just floats away.

And now that I have friends to share this happiness with, I feel even greater happiness.

“Troubles, when shared is halved. Happiness, when shared is doubled.”

In the past year, I have depended on my dance mates the most. And they have been the absolute best. I worry that I’ll miss them too much when I leave 😦

My first baby shower!

Sunday (21.01.18)

Last Christmas eve…

My family friend gave birth to a beautiful baby girl and named her ‘Ashlynn’.

Time flies. How is it that one month has passed!!

Picking out a gift for Ashlynn was pretty hard. I was stuck between educational books and storybooks.

Eventually, I got her flash cards in hopes that she’ll learn while having fun. I assumed that people would get her books about alphabets, so I got her flash cards that will teach her numbers and how to tell time.

Hopefully, in the next couple of months that I’m gone, she’ll grow healthily and learn quickly!

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • Ten Miles of Peach Blossoms Soundtrack
  • The Greatest Showman Soundtrack (By the way, please watch The Greatest Showman. It is by far, the greatest musical I’ve seen. So much love for it!)

P.S. I’m posting a ‘wanderlust’ post on Wednesday so stay tuned 😉

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤

What I’ve Been Up To Since 11 Dec ’17

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It’s been long, my friends. What is up?

It’s been a little over a month since I last posted. Hopefully, everyone is doing well in the new year! ❤

It feels as though it’s still 2017. I still can’t believe that I’m leaving Singapore in just three weeks’ time.

Today’s post is a short (I’ll try to keep it short) summary of what has happened in the past month 🙂 Do let me know how your new year has been too!

Catching up with friends

In the past month, there have been a few meet-ups with my close friends.

And I’m very grateful that they did ask me out for lunch or dinner etc. because then that means that I really mean something to them.

To be honest, I don’t think that I’m a good friend.

But I’m glad that some people think so. Over the years, I’ve learnt that when it comes to friendship, ‘quality’ is definitely more important than quantity.

Spending more time with family

From young, I spend very little time with my family.

We would only talk to each other when necessary. And we’ll be in our rooms for the entire day.

But recently, we have been spending more time together. Another thing I’m happy about. One thing about my partner is that he is a family person, and I do admire people who have a closely knitted family.

I do hope that in the future, our bond will only grow stronger, despite the fact that the physical distance between us will grow. I am glad that we have the technology to help overcome that.

Recovering from old injuries

Since I was young, I developed a bad habit of not telling my parents that I’m injured or sick.

And thus, my injuries have accumulated over years of dance training.

One day, I was helping my mother with her business when my shoulders and back acted up again. I then decided to tell her casually. And she asked me to visit the doctor (my father was visiting at that time) with my father the next time he goes.

All 3 of us went. And guess what? The doctor said that my right wrist, shoulders, back, knees and arms have injuries.

It was kind of heartwarming to see that people were worried but at the same time, embarrassing because it shows how much I’ve neglected my own health.

However, after that one visit, my father decided to head over to another clinic instead. A Traditional Chinese Medicine practitioner. The method he used was different but very fast and effective. He also told me that the cause of my headaches and pains was cold water.

And hence since that day, I haven’t had cold water, and hopefully, I’ll be able to stay away from it for a lifetime.

Learning croquis drawings

I will be taking up a minor in fashion while I’m studying. Thus I decided to do some research on how to draw croquis.

But the truth is, I’m actually quite stressed up.

I hope that I can do well there. And I hope that I won’t mess up HAHAHA. Bless me friends :’)

Song obsessions ❤ of the month include:

  • Are U There? by Mura Masa.
  • River by Charlie Puth.
  • Parachute by Skrillex & NSTASIA.
  • Again by Noah Cyrus & XXXTENTACION

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤


Week of 4th December ’17

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A week full of spontaneous decisions.

First Spontaneous Decision: Shopping with someone

Tuesday (05.12.17)

I was chilling on my bed when I received a text from the person I love. And the next thing I knew, we were walking around in Jem.

If I’m going to be completely honest, I have never shopped with someone for someone before.

Usually, it’s just window shopping. But this time, we were on a mission to get a polo tee. And we really went to great lengths to get one.

First stop of the day was G2000. He found a polo tee that was suitable but wasn’t sure about it. The thing is, we both imagined him to be in a dark blue polo tee. But we only had the option of white or red.

Thus we went elsewhere, but we didn’t really know where to go. We went to Robinsons and there was a nice dark blue polo tee but they didn’t have his size. After failing to find one at Marks & Spencers as well, I suggested going over to Westgate instead. We visited Isetan and Armani Exchange but to no avail.

So we decided to head over to IMM instead to look for Ralph Lauren. But to our surprise, there wasn’t Ralph Lauren. However, there was Lacoste. And we found a dark blue polo tee that looked and felt amazing. But the price was also really amazing ($89 after discount).

Not 100% willing to spend the money (still quite willing), he decided to ask his parents for an opinion and eventually, he settled for the white polo from G2000 after all.

Though tired, my heart was full seeing him try on so many shirts and just walking around with him HAHAHA. (I’m so cheesy. I’m sorry.)

Second Spontaneous Decision: Murder on the Orient Express

Thursday (07.12.17)

That evening, the person I love randomly asked me whether I wanted to watch “Murder on the Orient Express” and of course, I said yes!

I’ve been seeing the posters around a lot and I love myself a mystery, crime, thriller movie.

To be honest, the ending was quite expected. But for the sake of those who haven’t watched it yet, I shall not divulge information about it HAHAHA.

Definitely enjoyed watching a movie.

Fun fact, before I found the person I love, I watched movies alone most of the time in the past two years of my life.

Third Spontaneous Decision: Christmas Wonderland

Friday (08.12.17)

Okay, maybe this wasn’t very spontaneous. We wanted to go there on 2nd December, but the tickets sold out way too fast.

But still, it was a great experience.

I have been to Christmas Wonderland last year, but I did not stay for very long. Or rather, I should say that I didn’t stay over 10 minutes (not even until it was dark). Not because it wasn’t good (in fact I think last year may have been better), but because I was quite tired after my shift and because I was alone anyway.

But this year was slightly different.

Though the colour of the lights wasn’t my favourite, and not many shops interested me (except this shop that sold cute toys made of socks), I had the best company. And that made everything better.

I guess it’s true when they say that happiness is double when shared! :’)

For my friends who have yet to go there yet, it is time to get your tickets before it’s too late! Do get the bundle and visit the Flower Dome as well, for Poinsettia Wishes. Hope you have a merry time there too! ❤

Fourth Spontaneous Decision: Dinner at Akimitsu

Sunday (10.12.17)

My mother wanted to head down to Marine Parade to have dinner and a walk along the beach.

She asked me to invite the person I love to join our family, and surprisingly, he agreed!

So the five of us (my mother, father, aunt, him and I) were going to Marine Parade when it started to rain. Thus we decided to eat at Plaza Singapura instead.

It was between Nando’s and Akimitsu, but my mother didn’t like the environment of Nando’s. Thus we went into Akimitsu instead.

For the five of us, we definitely over ordered HAHAHA. We got 3 “Signature Tendon Sets” with “Hokkaido Milk Pudding” and hot “Lychee Tea”, and 2 “Ebi Tempura Rice Sets” with udon. We also had free chawanmushi as appetizers.

The portion is quite huge (just saying).

But thankfully, we managed to eat 90% of it?

Fifth Spontaneous Decision: Nutcracker Ballet

Sunday (10.12.17)

Saturday night, the person I love asked me whether I’d like to watch Nutcracker with him and I agreed without much thought although the price of one ticket is $55.

He helped to book the tickets and we managed to get seats on the side.

It is my second ballet and I felt nostalgia throughout. Nutcracker is one of my favourite ballets of all time, only second to Swan Lake. Partly because it is set in a Christmas setting ❤

Though Singapore Dance Theatre’s production was different from the original, I was still pleasantly surprised. It was a beautiful ballet, but sadly I caught the last show. I could not share the good news with my friends.

Sixth Spontaneous Decision: Drinks at Supply & Demand (Esplanade)

Sunday (10.12.17)

After the ballet, we decided to walk along the bay area.

Fortunately, we caught sight of the light show. After taking a few photographs of the light show, we decided to get some drinks nearby.

We settled down on the rooftop of Supply and Demand.

We got ourselves two drinks – “Blood and Sand” and “Sex on the Beach”. The funniest part is that we always talk about wanting to see the other person’s drunken state. But this is our first time drinking together. Both the drinks were really nice! “Blood and Sand” is slightly stronger than “Sex on the Beach” but it is still really light. And “Sex on the Beach” is really sweet.

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • Orion’s Belt by Sabrina Claudio.
  • Wit It This Christmas by Ariana Grande.
  • December by Ariana Grande.

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤

Week of 27th Nov ’17

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THE MOST exciting week ever!!!

Finally getting a dress for the party

Wednesday (29.11.17)

On the 28th of November, I sent a mass message to my closest friends to let them know the details of the party and announce the theme of the party – white, blue and gold.

From the time I decided the theme (about a week before that), to this day, I have had loved ones accompanying me to look around for an outfit for the party because most of my clothes are black.

I know what you’re thinking. You’re probably thinking why I decided on white, blue and gold instead of black instead. Or why I even wanted a theme at all.

Well, I was quite tempted to change it to monochrome, to be honest. But one of my best friends did not want monochrome as the theme, and well, technically it would be a little weird (it’ll look like a funeral?) to have a black and white theme for a birthday party. I have never held a party before. In fact, this is the first time I’ve celebrated my birthday party in aeons. Anyway, I was thinking that people generally look nicer in white and blue. Gold was just to add some sparkle HAHAHA.

Anyway, I was in 313 Somerset and whilst going up the escalator, I saw “Love, Bonito”. Usually, I would just walk past it. But for some reason, I felt like maybe I should just look through (I was kind of stressed).

The reason I’d walk past it usually is because I always have the impression that “Love, Bonito” is meant for thin, tall and pretty girls. And to be honest, I still think that way HAHAHA.

And surprisingly, I found two numbers that I liked. (Thank the Lord)

One was a white, thick-strapped asymmetrical top. The other was a navy blue maxi dress with double thin straps.

Honestly, I don’t look glamorous in either, but for some reason, I was willing to splurge on it (perhaps it’s because I was kind of desperate).

For those who know me, I am not someone who would wear tight-fitting clothes, let alone sleeveless. And I was contemplating whether I should wear a white shirt underneath it (until the morning of the party actually).

But I wanted something that would make me feel vulnerable. As vulnerable as I was 20 years ago. The reason being that they are my closest friends and loved ones.

Thus I eventually decided against it and showed my fats to the people in my world.

Attending a 21st Birthday Party

Wednesday (29.11.17)

My best takeaways from my nursing life are probably these two girlfriends of mine – Harshini and Hizza.

It was Harshini’s birthday and I was so excited! Although my physical body was super tired, my mind was really excited to see these girls I’ve been waiting to meet for such a long time.

I really treasure our friendship.

Firstly, it’s because we are of different races. Harshini is Indian, Hizza is Malay, and I’m Chinese.

Secondly, it’s because despite the fact that we are of different races, we respect one another and we are 100% open and honest with each other.

Lastly, it’s because we get equally excited about all the festive holidays like Chinese New Year, Hari Raya, Deepavali and Christmas.

I know that in Singapore, it’s probably quite normal to have great friends of different races. But I’m aware how tough it can be in the other parts of the world. And I hope that everyone will be able to look past one another’s skin colour, or race etc.

Anyway, Harshini’s birthday was super awesome! From the gorgeous girl herself to the decorations, the door gifts, the Indian delicacies. I loved everything! And I also loved the little cake that came in a squarish syringe!

Hizza and I pretty much just kept eating because we were hungry kids HAHAHA.


Thursday (30.11.17)

Oh golly, where do I even begin?

“Purpose” was by far the coolest concert that I’ve been to.

13 dance schools and a couple of independent artists were involved in this production. There were about 17 performances (it lasted for about 2 and a half hours with a 10-minute intermission in between).

I have to say, all 17 numbers were really good. Even the toddlers had more swag than me. All of them are so entertaining to watch. I laughed with joy and I was also moved to tears.

And above all of that, the fact that the funds from the tickets sold will be going to the Singapore Cancer Society makes it even more wonderful.

Honestly, I’ve never been happier to spend $25 on a ticket.

If you didn’t manage to catch it, I’m so sorry but there’s only one show. But if you’d like to contribute in your own way or if you’re curious, do click here to find out more!

Birthday Surprise

Friday (01.12.17)

To be honest, this is the first time that I’ve been surprised by my friends.

And the award goes to one of my best friends – Shiling.

The initial plan was to meet her at 3pm at Jurong East. But at 12pm, she texted me saying that there was a parcel at my door, and told me to go get it.

I was suspicious because how would she have known. And sure enough, I saw her at the window HAHAHA. I opened the door and called out her name. And she appeared. But another one of my best friends also popped up from the other side of the door – Ernest.

I was literally in shock (I was not ready) and so were my family (my mom does not like having visitors when our house is messy).

But it was really sweet of them to surprise me with so many gifts with 2 helium balloons (one white and one black), cake, a double chou cream and a mont blanc mochi from Chateraise! I am seriously so thankful for all of them!! :’)

Then for the next 3 hours, we chilled in my room, jamming to a few songs and opening up the presents (which was amazebombs!!!).

They watched me get ready before we went out for lunch at Al Azhar. We wanted to go to Al Ameen, but they only had Thai and Western cuisine when we got there. But nevertheless, all was well. Our tummies were full and happy.

Then we walked to Bukit Timah Community Club to sing karaoke at K Star. And though it was only an hour and a half long session, we left the room sweaty and smiley HAHAHA. We had such a good time in there.

And just like that, my birthday ended.

Thank you so much to these two for showering me with all the love, and everyone who wished me. ❤

Great Food, Amazing Places, Best Company

Saturday (02.12.17)

On this day, the person I love accompanied me for an entire day.

He wore a white shirt with grey jeans and black shoes. I wore the white top I bought, black pants, a black denim oversized jacket and black heels with a long silver necklace. (It was unplanned.)

We went to a cafe called “Symmetry” for brunch. I got the Symmetry Eggs Benedict and he got the Symmetry Big Breakfast. We also got ourselves Acai Berry and Roman Chamomile to quench our thirst and the Symmetry Waffle for dessert.

I loved everything. The vintage layout of the place (including the toilet) and the food. Oh goodness, it was a little piece of heaven.

Filled to the brim, we went to the National Gallery of Singapore because I’ve never been there before. And it made me realise how much I don’t know about art. But all is well because I now have someone who does know a fair bit about art.

After looking at a few exhibitions and taking some photos, we slowly made our way to Gardens By The Bay to visit the Flower Dome for “Poinsettia Wishes”.

I have to say that we were slightly disappointed by the northern lights display. But other than that, it was pretty good! We didn’t manage to grab tickets to Christmas Wonderland but we are going soon.

I believe that they have bundle packages for conservatories and Christmas Wonderland, so do grab your tickets before they sell out! (Also do check out the timings that Santa Claus will appear in the Flower Dome if you’d like to have a picture with him!)

Before we ended our day, we went to grab supper at Ippudo Ramen at Marina Bay Sands. I got Shiromaru and he got Akamaru with an extra umami style egg (if I’m not wrong). And oh my goodness, it was the best bowl of ramen I’ve ever had. I loved the broth so much I drank it all (and I usually do not drink the broth because it’s so oily).

We ended our day looking at the city landscape at Marina Bay Sands, listening to “Life Is Beautiful” by Vega 4. And at that moment, I was just overwhelmed by happiness, thinking about how lucky I have been in 2017.

It was one of the best days I’ve had so far.

Birthday Celebration | Farewell Party

Sunday (03.12.17)

Finally, it was THE DAY.

I woke up around 9 in the morning to get my room and myself ready for visitors. I had a rough idea of what I’d like it to be like, but I didn’t have a proper plan for the layout. I just played by ear really.

I was so nervous about how everything would turn out. And thankfully, my friends liked it!

Honestly, I was a really bad host. But everybody was so understanding and they helped me so much. Also, the person I love was the biggest help ever. ❤

I also want to take this chance to announce that I’ll be leaving for Australia in exactly 2 months’ time. :’)

I’m really sorry that this post is late, but stay tuned for another post later in the day! 🙂

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • Peekaboo by Red Velvet.
  • Lung by Vancouver Sleep Clinic.
  • Weight In Gold by Gallant.

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤

Week of 20th Nov ’17

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Another busy yet fulfilling week :’)

Back at Novena Church & Eating pho
Tuesday (21.11.17)

Throughout the week of 13th November, I was actually feeling upset and irritable. I felt absolutely miserable. And on top of that, I did not go to church. Though I was busier than usual, that is not an excuse for my absence at church (I am a little disappointed in myself).

So when my friend, Rosemarie, kindly invited me to join her in mass, I was really happy! She even invited me to lunch at So Pho! 😀

After praying at church, I felt so much more at peace with myself. It’s an unexplainable feeling (a good feeling). But both of us left Novena Church as happy souls :’) Filling my tummy with pho once again made me feel really contented as well.

It brought back memories of the first time I went to Novena Church with her on the 10th of October. Time really flies :’)

Day filled with good food
Wednesday (23.11.17)

I was lazing around in bed when one of my dance instructors, Jesper, asked me if I’d like to lunch together in town. He also said that I could ask one of my friends along, so I did! I asked one of my closest friends, Ernest. And the 3 of us met around two hours later at City Hall MRT station.

I’m not sure if you know this about me, but I’m probably the least Singaporean person ever. It was my first time in Raffles City or City Link (and I’m 20 years old).

It was such an eye-opener. There were so many shops that I’ve never seen before! Though I felt a little overwhelmed, I was quite excited because someone wanted to spend time with me. Ernest and I are not very picky about food, so Jesper decided to eat at Simply Wrapps (I did not misspell it). He got a Nutty Fruity wrap for himself and a Classic Caesar wrap for me. I’m super thankful for the treat :’) We then exchanged half of our wrap with one another.

Nutty Fruity is filled with romaine lettuce, almonds, grapes, apples, oranges, mangoes, strawberries and sunflower seeds with a tropical mint dressing. Classic Caesar is filled with romaine lettuce, grilled chicken, parmesan cheese, croutons and a boiled egg with classic caesar dressing.

I’ve never had fruits in my salad before, so it was something new to me. But it tasted really good! Unfortunately, I took very long to eat it because I didn’t have a big appetite. By the time I was done with one half, he had already finished both halves.

I think I took about 2 hours to finish my food (I felt really bad that they had to wait for me) but we had a really nice talk. After lunch, Jesper wanted to have some dessert so we went to Chateraise and he treated us to matcha ice cream and mochi! 🙂

It was the first time that I continuously stuffed myself for nearly four hours straight. I had a bulging tummy after that, but I was filled to the brim with happiness (literally). Walking around the malls with ice cream in hand made me feel like a kid once again HAHAHA.

Dinner with a senior I haven’t met in 8 years

Friday (24.11.17)

My secondary school senior who is 3 years older than me asked me if I’d like to have dinner. I didn’t know what we’d talk about at dinner, but there was going to be food, and I’m going to leave Singapore soon, so I said okay.

In the end, I had a good time at Genki Sushi, just catching up with someone whom I haven’t met in 8 years. 🙂

Working as a promoter
Saturday (25.11.17)

Honestly, I feel like I have a split personality whenever I work because my work requires me to be sociable at work.

But well, I shouldn’t be picky. I should be grateful for all the opportunities I have in life. Because I’m sure that they are presented to me for a reason.

The happiest part of my day was hearing that we hit our target number of customers because that means we earn extra money!!! :’) (And I really need that extra money)

Church of Saint Mary and the Angels
Sunday (26.11.17)

It was my first time going to church alone. And although it was slightly unnerving, I was mostly happy that I was going to be in His presence once again. I was worried that I’d do something wrong but thankfully, all was well :’) I will definitely be going there again.

Rewatching dramas

This week, I’ve been watching dramas.

I rewatched one of my favourite dramas – Autumn’s Concerto. And I cried sooooo much HAHAHAHA. :’)

Song obsessions ❤ for this week include:

  • Don’t Be So Hard On Yourself by Jess Glyne.
  • May I Have This Dance by Francis and the Lights & Chance the Rapper.
  • Fairplay by Kiana Lede.

Always dreaming,
e.clair ❤

Week of 13th Nov ’17

℘ Life Update Time ℘

Hell week.

Collecting my passport

Monday (13.11.17)

I made an appointment on Friday, 10th of November, to collect my passport at the Immigration & Checkpoints Authority (ICA) of Singapore at 3.15pm.

It’s not like it was due or anything, but because I’m going overseas for 3 years, I had to have a passport that is valid until at least 2021. Thus I renewed it.

So on Monday, I went to ICA. And went to get a queue number via the automated machine. I scanned my IC as instructed by the staff and got a queue number but unfortunately, the staff said that I had to enter another queue (that would take about 40 minutes) to take another queue number.

So I did, despite being completely confused.

Then the uncle in front of me asked me if he needed to take his old passport to collect his new passport and I said yes. Honestly, I empathised with him that he couldn’t collect it after “coming all the way to ICA”. I understood where he was coming from because I live quite far from Lavender as well.

So after that, I was feeling kind of worried because it was almost 3 and I had an appointment at 4pm. So I went out of the queue to ask the staff again. I told her that I made an appointment at 3.15pm and showed her the pink slip of paper that was mailed to me previously. And she told me the same thing – to join the queue to get another queue number. 😦

I joined the queue again and it was already past 3 so I decided to call the office to inform them that I would be late. Which made me feel so much more at ease.

I finally got my queue number after 30 minutes perhaps? And found a seat to wait for my turn.

Excited me went to the counter speed walking. And the chair ‘ran away’ from me when I was going to take a seat. It was so embarrassing.

After getting my new passport, I rushed to the train station to go to my next appointment and tripped again on the stairs. I know I am really clumsy HAHAHA.

But I got to the office just slightly past 4pm. Lucky!

Girl’s Day with mom

Tuesday & Wednesday (14.11.17 & 15.11.17)

My mom wanted to do a facial on Tuesday so she asked me to come along with her. And we went to Midpoint Orchard around 10 plus in the morning for our appointment.

Honestly, I wouldn’t do a facial without my mom, but it does feel really good to have a professional treat your skin. The only downside was probably leaving the place with a bunch of red spots on my face.

But in a way, it made me remember of my younger days, where I went out completely barefaced. It’s a little sad to see teenagers put so much makeup on these days. But I’m also glad that more and more people are supporting girls to embrace their natural beauty.

My mom and I also went to Zara in 313 Somerset to have a look and I managed to get a comfy grey and white knitted jumper that is huge and slouchy (perfect for the cold days), and a pair of black joggers that have a red and white stripe on the sides. Not exactly my style, but I decided to switch my style up for a little bit this season.

On Thursday, my mom wanted to go shopping again, but this time at Jem. And this time she got a few pieces that she liked!

I got a pair of black heels with frills (plus point) from Robinsons, some twine and a pen from Muji (Muji has the best pens friends!)

At Robinsons, I tried on a blue top that I really liked but it costs 59.90 bucks if I’m not wrong, and I wasn’t ready to pay that amount for a top. Then I found a dress version of it and I tried that on too! But it costs 69.90 bucks. Though it’s way more worth it compared to the top, I feel like the dress didn’t really work for me?

I’m going to have to find something white or blue soon for my birthday (it’s the theme after all) HAHAHA. Wish me luck!

Transport issues

Thursday (16.11.17)

I had an on-site briefing at Singapore Indoor Stadium at 7.30pm.

I left my house around 5pm and I was still a minute late or two. The train was incredibly slow and it was so horrible.

But really, what’s new?

In a country that emphasises so much on efficiency, it’s only natural that people would demand the same for transport. However, this issue has been going on for years now with no improvement. And they are increasing their burden by adding even more stations. Not to mention the increasing fares as well.

At the rate we’re going, I’m not sure people are going to continue taking trains in the future because it is so unpredictable and vexing.

And that means more cars on the road, which also means more carbon monoxide emissions that negatively effects global warming.

*Huge sigh*

Here is powerless me hoping that the public transport issues will get solved.

And then there’s Japan’s rail company issuing a public apology statement for leaving the train station 20 seconds early…

Stage Rehearsal

Friday (17.11.17)

After recital this year, the committee asked if my item was available to perform for the SkillsFuture Carnival that was happening in school. And surprisingly, all of my girls were down for it.

I thought about it and decided to add another song because I don’t like showing the same thing twice.

So they had a stage rehearsal the day before the ‘show’.

Apparently, we were asked to be there from 3pm to 6.30pm. But they didn’t allocate us a timing and the stage was not ready at 3pm for rehearsals.

Then they decided to tell me that I had to stitch the two songs together. Initially, my girls were trying to accomplish it with their laptops, but nothing could be done, so I had to text my life saviour to help me do that.

I mean, I don’t mind that they wanted us to stitch the songs together, but the tone that the lady (lady A) used wasn’t very nice at all.

And because we waited for so long, I asked some of the girls to buy something to eat while waiting because we had another dance class to attend after.

After we transferred the song to the lady’s thumb drive, one of my girls accompanied me to go upstairs to deliver it to the person-in-charge of the music. But he wasn’t there. And we had to wait another 10 minutes for him to come back. In the end, I got tired of waiting and asked someone else (lady B) about it. She then brought us up into the control room and plugged it in herself.

So finally, everything was done and we went back down.

The girls were back with my sandwich and bubble tea. And I was two bites in when another lady (lady C) popped out of the door to ask us in a not-so-nice tone once again, whether we were going to rehearse.

This time, I didn’t bother replying and just kept eating my sandwich.

And after we were all done, we went in to rehearse. After two times of rehearsing, the lady A came up to me and questioned me if I needed another rehearsal (while I was giving comments to my girls). I mean, there weren’t any other groups that needed to rehearse. So I told her that I needed 1 more, and she told the music guy to play the music whenever he is ready.

So after that last rehearsal on stage, we packed up and left the place, feeling super pissed off.

But dance class after that made my day so much better. (If you want to see it, head over to my Instagram @eclairelle 🙂 )

Craziest day

Saturday (18.11.17)

Where do I even begin?

I rushed to school in a cab and got there at 08 40. Then after almost 2 hours of doing makeup, hair, and slacking, we went to the Convention Centre.

Soon enough, it was time for them to perform and I was feeling all kinds of emotions. I was excited, sad, nervous, irritated etc.

Excited because it was finally time to showcase the item once again. Sad because I wouldn’t see them again after this. Nervous because I don’t know how the audience would react. Irritated by the noisy audience and lack of proper management (they didn’t have a stage manager or anything).

But most of all, I was feeling so proud. That the girls have been through 5 months of hell with me HAHAHA.

After the performance, I rushed to meet my secondary school friends for lunch in Westgate. We ate at Ma Maison and then ate dessert at Nunsaram HAHAHA.

It felt really nice to see them once again after such a long time, to be honest. Never a dull moment with them.

But after that, I had to rush home to get changed. And it was starting to drizzle as I reached home. By the time I was ready, it was pouring.

I wore a black mock neck top and a maxi skirt (which obviously got wet in the rain). Thankfully it dries fast.

I was rushing to watch a dance concert at Resorts World Sentosa which was great!

And after the concert, you guessed it. I rushed home to catch some sleep before another hectic day began.

Working with a lack of sleep

Sunday (19.11.17)

I was surviving on 8 hours of sleep in the past 3 days. Oops correction: Hardly surviving*

Evidence? I fell asleep while standing and fell forward. Thankfully I caught onto my friend who was in front of me at the time.

I think I’ve reached a whole new level of tiredness this time HAHAHAHA.

Surprisingly, things got better as the day progressed. I got less sleepy as the day passed but once I was home, I immediately collapsed HAHAHA.

And I finally got my well-deserved rest after that.

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • Make Me (Cry) by Noah Cyrus & Labrinth
  • Frustrated by R.LUM.R

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤

Week of 6th Nov ’17

℘ Life Update Time ℘

Being in His presence and rainy weather.

Being in His presence

I’ve been to different parishes this week. I went to the Novena Church on Tuesday, and Church of Saint Francis Xavier on Sunday. And honestly, I love being able to see so many parishes in such a short time. But most of all, I’m glad that I’m spending more time in His presence.

I have seen a change in myself gradually just in the course of days! I am seeking the Lord’s wisdom more often than ever these days. So much that I’m afraid I may annoy my friends who are not Catholics or Christians.

I have also been to the Catholic Formation Centre on Saturday as well. It was a day of recollection, whereby we have spiritual readings, sharing and meditation sessions. And last week’s topic was about purgatory (believe it or not, it’s a topic that I’ve been really interested in for a long time. I know, how lucky am I right!) for meditation.

Praying, and knowing that someone is watching over me, really reminds me to be the best I can be. I’ve realised that I’ve been more aware of my speech and behaviour.

God does not demand us to be perfect for He knows how we are formed, He remembers that we are dust. (Psalm 103:14)

And thus we should seek not perfection, but progression.

Rainy weather

So I live in a little red dot on the map named Singapore.

We do not have the four seasons, but we do have monsoon seasons. That means, lots and lots of rain.

I am not complaining though, for I am a ‘pluviophile’.

But it is not good to get caught in the rain when you are trying to recover from flu after all. I had such a tough time trying to talk and sing in church with mucus stuck at the back of my nose.

But yes I love watching the rain. It’s sort of calming. And sometimes I’d secretly wish that snow would fall instead. (No longer a secret now HAHA)


Thursday (09.11.17)

Watching Jigsaw in the movie theatres was something I didn’t see myself doing. Honestly, I didn’t even know that Jigsaw was out.

Surprisingly, I have a strong stomach for blood and gore. Perhaps it’s because I’ve seen worse in the Accident & Emergency department, and the Operating Theatres during my clinical attachment. Funny how it’s been almost a year since that happened.

But the company was better than the movie HAHAHAHA. Oh well!

Family Gathering

Sunday (12.11.17)

My mother is the best cook I will ever know.

And the fact that she only cooks once in a blue moon makes me appreciate her cooking like 100000 times more.

Yesterday, she decided to buy ingredients and prepare a scrumptious meal for my dad, herself and I. My aunt saw her and told her that she will come with her family as well.

So it was quite unexpected but I’m glad to see my cousins again. Though they are all taller than me :’) 2 of them are 172cm tall (and they are both younger than me. 13 and 19 years old.)

I had such a great time just catching up with them and making foolish cold jokes and lame puns.

I hope that this week will be even better for you! 😀

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • Hold On by Derek Hough.
  • I Like Me Better by Lauv.
  • Baby, It’s Cold Outside by Michael Buble and Idina Menzel. (It’s not too early for Christmas :’) )

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤

Week of 30th Oct ’17

℘ Life Update Time ℘

Being out of the country and being ill.

Overseas Trip

Sunday to Wednesday (29.10.17 – 01.11.17)

So my family and I decided to head to Genting on Sunday noon.

My parents hired a driver from Malaysia to come pick us up from our place and drive us all the way to Genting. Normally this would take about 5 hours (inclusive of a food and toilet break), but that day, we took about 8 hours.

Unfortunately for us, it was raining quite heavily and there were so many traffic jams on our way up. By the time we reached, it was already past 8 and the entire family was starved and tired with stiff legs and sore butts.

Once we reached, we split into two groups. My dad and I would check us into the hotel we were staying for the night (Maxims Hotel) while my mom, aunt and uncle make a reservation at the restaurant (Imperial Rama).

From being starved to the bone, we puffed up like stuffed turkeys for Thanksgiving soon enough as we hungrily stuffed our faces with fried tofu, salted egg prawns, vegetables, and more meat.

One thing I love about Maxims Hotel is that they provide wifi in the room itself. Which meant that I didn’t have to spend money on Starbucks for wifi (though people may argue that it’s killing two birds with one stone, I beg to differ). And thus after dinner, the five of us just spent the rest of day 1 cooped up in our rooms, sleeping (well, I was making full use of the wifi until I slept).

Day 2 and 3 was mainly shopping spree days HAHA.

On Day 2, we headed down to the Chin Swee Caves Temple by taxi. I’d recommend this place to anyone who is planning to go to Genting simply because of the amazing views. Though, do try to go there in the morning to get clear shots of the mountains and the clouds! You can also take the Awana Skyway to Chin Swee station.

Other than taking pictures of nature, we also lit up firecrackers outside the temple for good luck and of course, I had to make my way up to the highest level just to have an attempt of taking cool photographs of the pagoda. And after taking a gazillion photographs, I was finally satisfied and ready to leave.

Once we got back, my dad had to check us out of Maxims Hotel before we checked ourselves into Resort Hotel. (My parents wanted to stay in Resort Hotel for all 3 nights, but they didn’t have two vacant rooms on our first night there.)

In the meantime, the ladies had lunch at KyoChon 1991 before we looked around in Sky Avenue while the men went to the casino. And I spent the rest of my night in the lobby using the lobby wifi.

On day 3, we had late breakfast all together at Go Noodle House. And I’d recommend you to try the bursting meatballs. I’d say that it is really worth it as one bowl costs about RM19.90 which is about SGD6? Our tummies were satisfied.

After that, my mom, my aunt and I took the Awana Skyway (we bought tickets for a return trip on the standard gondola for RM16 each) to Genting Premium Outlets to look around. There are also shuttle buses available to the same place if I’m not wrong but we took the cable car instead because the view is absolutely ❤ !

Do note that you have to crossover to the mall! The stuff they sell there is generally so much cheaper (yes, even for the branded goods ladies), so do have a look! I spent quite a lot at Typo (slightly over RM100) on like maybe 9 things plus 1 free gift (a pouch), so I’d say that it’s a pretty good deal friends.

My mom, on the other hand, was much more interested in the food section HAHAHA. When we were done shopping, we went back via the cable car with our goods and I carried them all the way back into our hotel rooms. (Yes that was my workout of the day)

We agreed to meet at 4pm at Motorino’s for some woodfire pizza. So I still had about 2 hours of lobby wifi time HAHAHA.

At Motorino’s, we had the Egg, bacon and chilli pizza (without bacon because the family does not eat beef) and the Margherita pizza along with fried calamari and chicken wings as sides. I’d say that the egg and chilli pizza, and the fried calamari was the best. Do note that they do take outs and deliveries as well!! 😀

I spent the rest of my night in the lobby using wifi really HAHAHA. And the next morning, we were on our way back to Singapore (It took us 5 hours this time HAHAHAHA)!

From the last time I was in Genting in May, I’d say that there are a couple of new shops and attractions to have a look at. And I hope that the next time I’m there, there’ll be even more things to see!

Ill and About

So for the past two weeks, I’ve been slightly tired and sneezy. But after I came back from my trip, everything just went downhill from there.

I started getting snotty, and then I had a really bad sore throat. Now, I wake up with a croaky voice and can’t survive without water for more than an hour.

But even so, I am glad that I still go out and about. (Though I’m potentially spreading germs and bacteria everywhere…) I feel like seeing my friends make me feel so much better and myself. ❤

But I should really get more rest HAHAHA.

Song obsessions ❤ of this week include:

  • I Like Me Better by Lauv.
  • Likey by Twice.
  • Wolves by Selena Gomez & Marshmello.

Always dreaming,

e.clair ❤